Monday, September 30, 2013

My Precious Shadow

It's been a little while since I last posted. And this post is in the late afternoon. I'm definitely breaking some of the unwritten rules of blogging, but I don't care. I want to write this post regardless.

I've been going back and forth about posting this, but I feel like I need to.

Two weeks ago, I lost my cat.

My beautiful Shadow.
He was an outdoor cat and loved to spend a lot of time in nature. At night I sometimes had to use my sister to get him inside for the night. She had this knack for getting him to come to her so she could grab him and bring him in.

That Sunday was the last time I saw him. He was on our neighbor's porch just lounging like a cat would do. He didn't come in that night. I didn't see him all day Monday or Tuesday. There have been a couple of times where I didn't see him for a couple of days, so I wasn't that worried about him.

Wednesday I had to open at work. When I left my house, I thought I would look around my yard and see if I saw Shadow lounging somewhere in one of his favorite spots.

I saw him. He was laying at the back of our neighbor's fence. In my gut, I knew something wasn't right, but it didn't stop me from walking over to him. And it wasn't a pretty sight. I was in shock. Something attacked him. I don't know what, but I know it didn't kill him instantly. I think he was attacked and was trying to get home to me and only made it to the fence.

My stepmom was off work that day so I walked back in the house and told her I found him. Then I started crying. I called Zach and told him. And I still had to go to work. My stepmom wanted me to let her I know I made it to work safely so I let her know when I got there and she told me that Shadow was taken care of. Zach came and visited me at work with 3 different things of chocolate.

On my way to work I was pretty teary. I couldn't get that image of my precious cat out of my head. Once I got to work, it kept me distracted. I kept it together most of the day, until my coworker asked me how my day was. The rest of the day I kept it together until I got home. I knew I had to call my grandma and mom and I was dreading it. My grandma is the one that got me Shadow when I graduated high school. I cried through both conversations and for a little while after. I had plans to have dinner with a friend, and I knew it would keep me distracted, so I kept them. After dinner, I didn't want to go home, so I met up with Zach and a few friends. I didn't go home until after midnight.

I know Shadow was just a pet, but he was my baby. He cuddled with me every night and most mornings. He came to me when his food bowl was empty. He knew I was Mom. And I miss him like no other.

RIP Shadow. I love you so much!

Friday, September 13, 2013

Want to photograph my wedding?

Today's Blogtember prompt: a self portrait.
This was last night at work. I twisted my hair and it stayed up for almost an hour.
But this isn't the only reason I'm posting today. The last couple of days I've been frustrated.
Over the last 2 months, I've been contacting wedding photographers trying to set up meetings with them to discuss them photographing my wedding. Our date is in the middle of June, at the height of wedding season, so I want to make sure I get a great photographer for a good price. Makes sense, right? 
Well, I kept getting the same message from everyone: "Let me check my schedule and I'll get back with you." And it's been two weeks since I've heard from any of them. After about the 3rd or 4th time of getting that, I became frustrated. I mean, I just want to discuss the possibility of them photographing my wedding. I don't want to plan every single detail until closer to the date. I'm trying to make sure I have the big stuff taken care of because I don't want to be one of those brides that freaks out a week before the wedding because something hasn't been booked, or completed, etc. Know what I mean?
I don't mean to be a downer or overreact, but I'm really frustrated. I don't want to keep calling them repeatedly, but I don't know what else to do. #endrant
What did you do when you booked your photographer? Any advice you want to share?

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Blogtember: Blogging Changes Lives

First off, did you see that I now have over 100 followers?!? How awesome is that?! You guys are awesome!!! Thank you so much for sticking around and reading about my life! I love you all!!

I didn't participate in Blogtember yesterday because I don't shop online. I much prefer going to the store and finding what I need that way. That, and I don't want to pay for shipping. Now it's onto today's prompt.

Discuss ways that blogging or social media has changed you.

When I started this blog, my intention was to document my life. I love to write and I wanted to be able to share certain things with the world. But in the two and a half years I've been blogging, things have changed drastically. I mean, more than 100 of you want to read what I have to say! I never knew that many people wanted to read what I have to say that I didn't know personally, and I'm so glad you're here! I've never met any of you, but I would love to change that one day!

I love blogging. I love when people talk about their real life struggles and successes. I love finding lifestyle blogs that I can relate to. 

Blogging has definitely become an important part of my life. I love that in the future I can look back and see what I was up to on a Friday night three months ago. Or remember my emotions when Zach proposed. I just feel so blessed that you all want to follow along while I chronicle my life. Thank you.

How has blogging changed you?

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Blogtember: Life Changing

Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.

I would have to say when this happened. I know, this is predictable, but it really is the only distinct moment when my life took a turn. 

I mean, I knew we would eventually get engaged, but I was genuinely surprised when he proposed.

The whole day was pretty normal, up until that point. The whole family got together like usual, and we goofed around before dinner. But once it clicked in my mind what Zach was doing, I knew we were never going to be same, in a good way.

I had so many thoughts going through my head. The main thing was that I was going to be able to spend the rest of my life with Zach. And that he wanted to spend his life with me. I had so many plans and pins pictured in my head, but I knew I just wanted to tell people I was engaged!!

That night we went to my mom's house, his mom's house, and called his dad. I had a permanent smile on my face the rest of the night. We waited a few days tell the world we were engaged. We wanted to make sure the important people in our lives knew before Facebook or Twitter.

When did your life take a turn?

Monday, September 9, 2013

Weekend Fun

So what do Zach and I do on a Friday night?

Go to Meijer and get excited about Halloween,

Play Angry Birds,

Hang out and put my hair in a high, messy bun,

Play with his various hats,

And reminisce about when we swapped senior pictures at the beginning of our relationship.

Saturday I didn't do much. 
I went to my grandma's where she showed me different flowers for different things for my wedding.
We went to a store to look for a certain flower she bought there once before, but they didn't have it, then went to lunch.

Later that night we went to dinner for my sister's birthday.
Sister and one of her friends
Her actual birthday was Thursday, and when I texted her, this is the response I got:

Sunday I didn't set my alarm and slept in.
Boy did that feel nice!

In the afternoon we had cake.

She blew all the candles out in one breath.
Sunday evening Zach and I did our engagement photos!!

I LOVE my save the date prop!

I don't have any to show you guys yet, but you best believe once I do there will be a post!!

How was your weekend?

Sami's Shenanigans

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Blogtember Advice

Pass on some useful advice or information you learned and always remembered. 

I used to work at a credit union a couple years ago. It's a small credit union, so everyone knows everyone. One of the regular members always liked to talk to all of us. He would talk about the most random stuff, while we did his transactions. He definitely kept things interesting around the office. There was this one phrase he always said before he walked out the door: "Wherever you go, that's where you'll be."

Let me tell you, the first time he said this, it sounded like really great advice. After a few more times of hearing it, it hit me that he was telling me a joke every time. He would always laugh after saying it to me, and I never knew why. Boy, did I feel silly.

To this day, I still remember this phrase. I tell people this in a serious tone just to see their reaction, and then we all laugh. :)

What advice do you have?

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

3 Months in Blogtember

If you could take three months off from your current life and do anything in the world, what would you do?

Well, since my current life includes wedding planning, I can't spend three months doing just that, right? 
That's okay. I have a backup plan.


And not just take a road trip across the country.
I would buy a passport and travel the world.

Some places I want to see include:





Among other places. 
Zach went to Europe on a mission trip for high school and I know he wants to go back.
If we could afford it, we would leave the country for our honeymoon.

What would you do for 3 months?

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Blogtember Day One

Announcer: "And the "Bad Blogger Award" goes to ... Jessica!" 
I know, I know, it's been a little bit since I was here last. And I don't really have an excuse except for that my life is boring. 
All I really do is work. And spend time with Zach. And cuddle with my kitty. 
I guess my life isn't all boring, but whatevs. How many times can you blog about seeing your man? 
All the time? Oh, okay. ;)

Anyway, moving on.

My friend Christine tweeted the other day about something called blogtember. I've never heard of such a term and I was intrigued by it, so I went looking for it's meaning. Jenni at Story of My Life is doing this, which is similar to Blog Everyday in May. I'm not going to go into detail about, because I think you should check it out. :)

Today's prompt: Describe where or what you came from. The people, the places, and/or the factors that make up who you are. 

Let me just say that when I saw the "what you came from" line, the first thing I thought about was one of my guy friends saying "I came from a human" and immediately started laughing to myself.

I am a born and raised Ohio girl. I grew up in and around Dayton and still haven't left. 

My parents got married when I was 7 months old. They were not expecting me to come along when I did. ;)
My parents divorced when I was 7 after having 2 more children.
They each remarried to different people and I gained more siblings.
My stepdad had 2 children from his previous marriage, and him and my mom had a baby boy.
My stepmom has never been married before, but with my dad, they had 2 children.
So I have a total of 7 siblings: a stepbrother, a stepsister, a "real" brother, a "real" sister, 2 half brothers, and a half sister.
And if you ask me about who is who, I will draw you a map. ;) Like this:

I had most of my schooling south of Dayton, but finished high school in downtown Dayton, then moved schools a few blocks away and graduated college.

I've been working since I was a senior in high school. Half of my degree is in management and that's what I do now. And I love it. I may not have the typical 9-5, Monday thru Friday schedule, but that's okay.

Zach and I met 5 years ago at my previous job, where we were both working part time. Our first date was at Cold Stone and I knew he was a keeper.
We're getting married next year and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him.

I believe everything happens for reason. 
Every heartbreak, every tear, every happiness and every sadness has a purpose. 
These things help shape a person into who they become. 
I never regret anything because if it didn't happen, I might not be where I am today.

P.S. This is my 300th post!